I am still tired..and today I had to come to work as UNITEN is organizing this R&D workshop for the 9th Malaysian Plan. I was not in a good mood and kinda grumpy..maybe due to this tiredness I suppose..I did not get the rest that I needed. The only thing that made me happy and get me through the day was hearing his voice.
Nway, back to the workshop, the lecturers must try to come up with at least one project title for the fund. During the briefing, it was so boring and I felt asleep a couple of times. But then, the evening session was more interesting as we were divided into groups and we did some brainstorming to come out with some ideas.
Most of the titles were so technical that I couldn't understand their synopsis at all..gosh, I felt so left behind. But then, the main thing is that are you interested in that field in the first place to start making it a big project? Don't do it just for the sake of having a research..I told myself that..and finally, I came out with a title and I think I like the title so much because I know I am doing it for a good reason ( if it is approved la.. ) which is to educate.
Actually, for the past 2 weeks or so, I was thinking about a lot of things..PhD was one of them..but there was this one thing that kinda surprise me..I even thought about working back in the industry instead of teaching...I got so frustrated..because I thought that this is exactly what I love to do. But then again, I realized that this may arised due to the fact that I am not teaching during this special semester and I kinda lost about how to make myself more productive..being in a research team was one of the way..
And so, it was quite an eye opener that I proposed a title that sticks to what I believe is my best aspect..to educate and suddenly I just felt so much better
