WAITING

It is not easy to wait. Waiting for a phone call for example. Like you have tried contacting someone for like the hundredth time but the only thing you got was “Sorry..please try again later”..well, I did try again LATER..but keep hearing the same lady saying the same phrase. So, what else can you do? Just wait. Wait..for how long? You have no idea.

I am the kind of person that needs to know every detail of a particular situation before I decided what to do. How can I look at things in a more positive aspect? For example, a broken handphone, with a blank screen. Hence, don’t even think of receiving an sms or even reading one that I sent. Oh yeah, don’t forget that the one with the broken handphone could not even knew who had called him. So, what can I do? Understand..adapt..fine. I could do that. I have been doing that for the last one week.

So, what can he do for me? Can he understand the situation from my point of view too?

*sigh*

PREMONITION

Just now I finished my class early..for two reasons

i) I think the students can't think anymore..I gave them an example and even that made them went blur. So, I better not start with a new thing.

ii) I just can't wait for the long weekend. Woohoo..!

Well, not that I am going anywhere anyway, he will go back to his hometown..Payit's fiancee will be around..so, I'll be bored definitely..but somehow, just the feeling of resting at home. But I hope he won't forget me lor..

There will be this Kejohanan Sukan Mahasiswa here in UNITEN..and they put me in charge of Tennis....Tennis!! I was looking forward for badminton but somebody took that already. Well, it's about the same mechanism anyway..hehehe. The exciting thing is that I'll be going to the Muadzam Campus in Kuantan for the game. But the not so fun about it is that we'll be missing another weekend. Dah la Aidiladha nanti, he will go home again and this time for a good whole week. Isk..isk..nevermind la..he even make this premonition that January is going to a tough month for us..I think so too..*sigh*

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

Yesterday was Shake's wedding reception and I went there with him. The reception was at night. Hmm..good idea actually. The weather was good, guests came and then quickly rushed home as they have to work tomorrow. Hence, the event will not drag..and the bride and groom can straight away..................open their presents..hahahah..!

On Saturday, I went out with him to buy the wedding present. We went to Alpha Angle and bought this unique wall clock. It was not that expensive..but ok la kan..considering it is middle of the month plus that store does not accept credit cards la pulak. Nway, when I reached home, I was trying out the clock to make sure it worked. But NOOO...! I waited for 5 minutes..used different batteries and waited again but both hands just stayed there. Oh..I forgot that this clock has no second hand...hence the waiting period.

Nway, then, I decided to went back and exchanged it, went with Payit. But the one that I bought was their last stock and the only one left was the displayed one..and it had a scratch on it..of course la I didn't want to take that one..so, I decided to look around for something else with the same price. The shop assistants were great and nice..they treated me with respect and felt sorry for the trouble they caused me. Hehehe..

Well, after looking around..there was this nice alarm clock...boleh la..

On Sunday, I watched VCDs of a Malay telemovie titled Cinta 3 Musim. It was like When Harry Met Sally..the only difference is that Harry and Sally are friends where they keep bumping into each other even after years went by, not knowing that they are actually meant for each other. This Malay movie however are about two lovers that separated because of circumstances. Then they meet again..but some other problems arised...so separated again..well, u get the picture. There are 9 CDs..I just finished the 6th one yesterday..heheheh..I'll finish them tonite. Can't wait for the ending. Hahaha..!

SILLY BILLY

I was being silly...sensitive and a bit jealous at the same time. Things are clearer now...and I know I am special too.

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Today I have no lecture. I updated some portfolios for my subjects and went out for lunch with Ira. She came by and paid me a visit. We had a great chat and laugh. Next week maybe I'll pay her a visit again to Shah Alam..maybe je ok..?heheheh

A kickoff meeting for a project I am currently involving had started today. Very nervous as I am involving in something totally new. We successfully secured some money for consultancy and of course we have to deliver in time.

Me and him?

We are fine..Alhamdulillah (^_^)

THE AFTERMATH

Misunderstood..I guess I should see that coming.

Tried to explain..

She of all people would know..YOU of all people, knows me.

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Nway, the new semester had started yesterday. Teaching the same subject but the feeling of coming to class for the first time will always be there. Butterflies in my stomach and also talking fast like a bullet train. Heheh..

KINGDOM OF FRIENDS

Long weekend..today is a holiday..Sultan Selangor’s Birthday, hail to the king..!! heheh..

No movies last weekend..surprise hey..hahaha..! Nothing worth seeing I supposed. Maybe Eragon next week? I love mystical + adventure stuff..plus there are John Malkovich and Jeremy Iron. Great actors.

I am feeling a bit sad..because I feel like I am losing my good friends..and I started to act differently when I am with them. My friends at which I behave the way I usually am are my colleagues and with a few of my a-level friends..but to these few gals that I used to really2 care about..I think they are just fine without me and I feel like I wanna let them be..things change..

I am not angry or upset..I just feel like there is nothing I can do anymore..I just need to let go.

ABOUT CINTA

I am no expert in reviewing any film la..but this one, I just have to say something.

Fasha-Eizlan

Acting wise, Eizlan was good. I used to have a crush on him masa RTM sibuk tayang slot Spektra and there was this drama series called Jaguh-Jaguh. Pergh..pasal badminton kan, tu yg I follow the drama. He was thinner la back then. Fasha was beautiful and acting pun ok. But the chemistry between them, not so la.
From their love story, I learned that each of us wants to know that we are important and needed in the other half's life. I guess, love is about being needy and needed at the same time.

Rashidi-Rita Rudaini

Of course this married couple is the one that I can relate to the most. I haven't watched Rashidi act for quite a while, so, it was refreshing to watch him again. He portrays his frustration and hurt about his marriage and the love for his daughter very well..I said very well because I cried la..I dunno about other viewers ok..:)
Rita's dialog was not many but very2 deep. Her facial expression was good too.

The flashback scenes and the letters he sent to her was really2 touching.

Pierre Andre-Syarifah Amani

Simple, nothing much about this couple. Love at first sight kinda thing. The guy taught her what loving someone is all about and she taught him that life can be exciting and positive if you want it to be. Syarifah was being her usual bubbly Gubra/Sepet character but speaking in bahasa. Pierre also not much different with his character in Gol & Gincu. The shy2 type..the naive type.

Nanu-Que Haidar

The best chemistry and connection..even though they were acting as brother-sister in this film. The dialogues, the expressions..they were all good. Of course who could forget Que Haidar's sidekick friend. He was just a supporting character but, it is him that stuck in my mind.

Rahim Razali-Fatimah Abu Bakar

Touching because your mind started to think about your parents. Can you really take care of them? How patient can you be?

No comment la about the acting of these 2 senior actors. Brilliant face expression. Looking at their faces and straight away we know what is it that they are trying to tell us..what are their feelings.

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The dialogues that keeps playing in my mind

Rashidi: Must be some kind of guy
Rita: No, just my kind.

Eizlan: Kau tau, dia tau, sudahla..nak buat aper beritau satu dunia
Rashidi: Kalau kau tau, dia tau, buat aper nak sembunyi.

Fatimah Abu Bakar to Nanu: Kadang2, org yg paling kita sayang tu la yg paling susah untuk kita sayangi.

Fatimah Abu Bakar: Satu hari bersama dengan orang kita sayang, walau mcm mana penat dan susah pun, lebih bermakna dari seumur hidup bersama dengan orang yg kita tak sayang.

Rahim Razali: Ye..bukan senang nak carik orang yg sanggup sehidup semati dengan kita, sanggup terima buruk baik kita, sanggup bersama dengan kita sehingga ke akhir hayat. Isteri bukannye hak milik, tetapi anugerah. ( best je cara dia cakap dialog nih..)

Finally,

The tune played by Que Haidar's sidekick friend. Hahahah..!

To the cast and crew of CINTA - ON A JOB WELL DONE

JATUH CINTA TWICE

FRIDAY

I took leave..simply to rest my mind and soul..chewah..so, I only left with one day annual leave..hahahah..! Plus one day off-in-lieu for invigilating the exam during the weekends.

Nway, on Thursday nite, I baked a cheese cake for my friend, Ira. It was for her birthday present..heheh. Cake tu retak seribu..but it was tasty of course..I did not say that ok..she said so of course...noo..she was not being paid...! Haiya..just believe me la..can or not?

So, that morning I went to Shah Alam to meet her and we were going to watch the movie CINTA..at 11.20am. The cinema was half full. Not bad la kan. That was a good sign.

I will review the movie in my next entry.

Just want to say that the movie was brilliant and it brought tears to my eye. Both of us. So, u guys just gotta watch it.

After the movie, we went to Nando's for lunch and then we went back to Shah Alam..where I ambushed her computer and surf the net like crazy. Hahaha..!

It was almost 7pm when I arrived home. Me and him had dinner at Tupai-Tupai that was so expensive man..! No more Tupai-Tupai for us la.

SATURDAY

Nothing much during the day. Went to Carrefour with him and I bought ingredients to bake another cheese cake. My mom sms-ed me on Friday.."How could I did not left any cakes for her". Haiya..it was a gift for a friend..takkan la nak potong2. So, being a nice daughter that I am, I decided to bake another one for her.

OH MY GOSH, I forgot the most important thing

MY BROTHER AL-PAYIT IS TRANSFERED TO KL BRANCH!!WOOHOO.....!!

He arrived from Kelantan in the afternoon. With all his stuff. I am still adapting to him being at home now, and never going back to Kelantan anymore. Hehehe..

Nway, at nite, me and him had dinner. Where? At Kelab Tasik Putrajaya. Hahaha..! Yerp, that far. Once in while maa..something special. The food was delicious and the price was reasonable with the amount. Seriously. Eat there and you will be satisfied. The ambience was nice..we sat near the lake. We could see the mosque, the lightings around Putrajaya..pergh..nice view la. Then we went for sightseeing around Putrajaya..cantik la Putrajaya at nite. Best betul. Next year, we go ok K.D ;)



BEFORE



AFTER

SUNDAY

Baked the cheese cake.

Watched CINTA again..this time with him.

I cried again. Yeah..the movie was that good.

Came back home, half of the cheese cake were gone. (^_^)

So, basically that was my weekend.

I felt tired but satisfied at the same time.

A productive weekend indeed.

THOSE EYES

Whenever the students started to view their grades online, we the lecturers are sucjected to emails and visits from these students hoping to help them getting better grades or at least a passing grade.

Emails are not a problem la..worse comes to worst, I just delete these emails..or I just decided to attend to them later. However, when they came over my office..haa, that is the tough part.

2 students came over today. One desperately needed a passing grade. Less than 30%?? His reason is that with CGPA less than 2.00, he could not continue his loan. Hmm..I don't understand these students sometimes..some student out there would do anything to get a study loan ( even though u have pay a hefty sum once u get out ) but still..dun waste it la kan. I said, u got less than 30%, how can I let u pass? And also, even if I give u a passing grade, ur CGPA will still be 2.00 and the problem with ur sponsor still stands. I just asked him to appeal to his sponsor and of course discuss with his parents on what to do.

Another student..a final year student..searching for jobs. Most of the jobs require CGPA of 3.00 and above. He got 2.9 something. He got B..on the fence B. Asking me whether he could get B+ in order to boost up his CGPA. Hmm..this one, I decided to do what I can..but I told him to bring over all his previous test papers and I try to see whether I can add marks here and there. I promise I try my best but I said to him that I won't give just like that.

These students came to me with eyes that were begging for mercy. I couldn't bear looking at them especially for the first case. Kesian sangat..but..tell me what can I do..?

MONDAY UPDATE

Why aa I start to update on Monday only ek..hehehe..because nothing interesting happened la lately. Students are having their semester break and I am going to teach the same subjects next sem..so, nothing much to do.

Last weekend watched a seriously-wasting-money movie, Dealova..argh..tak best langsung. Heheh..but looking forward to watch Cinta though.

Yesterday a friend sms-ed me for an advice whether to let go of his girlfriend of different religion. Hmm..complicated actually their relationship nih. The girl said cannot live without him, she needs him etc. I told him that if you guys still want to be with each other, then kena buat betul2 la. Nak settle down ke with this girl? This girl want to settle down with u or not? Have to discuss all the pros and cons. Kalau dah susah sangat, maybe being apart is the best decision for both of them la kot. I dunno la..boleh advice je ye tak?

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I am having mix feelings right now. Why? Maybe after 2-3 weeks I will let you guys know ok. Heheh..

And also, I will try to update again this week. I try..no promises.

GRADING...DONE!

Last week..busy busy..but I managed to finish marking the papers..uwek..uwek..nak muntah rasenye..hahahah..!

Performance? Hmm..VLSI was ok..maybe the paper was easy. You just memorized my notes, then, no problem lor. Circuit? Haa..this one, I don't know what to say la kan. It was an okay paper but they were just being careless and not practice hard enough. Well..can't blame them jugak since the schedule was quiet pack.

Nway..as for myself. Things are getting better..I hope..a few things had been said. Necessary things la kan..otherwise, how can we improve ourselves.

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Casino Royale. Watched it yesterday. I LOVE DANIEL CRAIG...!!! He of course did not like him..he said James Bond should have a touch-N-go thingy with girls..no emotional attachment whatsoever, like Sean Connery. Well, that is why I like this movie la..it is different. Although for the poker game..I wish I can understand how it is played...because if I do, I would enjoyed it more la. Kalau main badminton lagi best..hahahah..!

Alright then, take care everybody.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?

Yerp..I am emotionally not well. I am now trying to focus on other things. There are other things in life that matters kan?

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On a higher note, went to an open house yesterday at Bukit Beruntung. Had so much fun laughing and catching up with old friends. I went alone this time. It was good though as I could just take my time chatting away with my friends.
The best thing about yesterday was I got to meet a long lost friend. We call her AJ. During our degree time, she mysteriously stopped her degree and went away. Everybody kinda like lost track of her. Even her best friend did not know where she was. That was 7 years ago I think...and walla, there she was yesterday..with A YEAR OLD BABY BOY. Gosh..! Everybody was like, u have to tell us from A-Z ok AJ..what happened to u huh? The boy is so la cute..hmm..from his feature, I could tell that she married a foreigner. The hubby was not there though. Nway, we exchanged phone numbers and I hope that we will see more of AJ soon. Kuasa Allah..tak sangka dapat jumpa balik..who would have thought huh?

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He lost one of his friends last October and he only found out about it last nite. I on the other hand felt like blurting out all my frustration towards him yesterday but since he told me about the news, and hearing his devastating voice, I just decided to swallow everything and just listened to him. I mean, I was also being silly as usual la kan.
Nway, he felt bad for not being a good friend, for not visiting his friend more often, and more importantly I think, he was upset for putting off his intention to visit him to some other time. Whatever it is, his friend is in a better place and suffers no more. Insya-Allah.

Only the good die young. I was wondering where does the phrase originates from and using my powerful search tool ( Google of course ). This is what I found.

The long history of the saying began with the ancient version, 'Whom the gods love dies young,' and a touching story of how the proverb originated. As told by the Greek historian Herodotus in 'History' (c. 445 B.C.), the story concerns two especially favored youths who, replacing two missing oxen, hitched themselves to a cart and carried their mother to a festival for the goddess Hera. At the temple, the grateful mother asked Hera to reward her sons with the greatest gift anyone might receive, whereupon her sons lay down to sleep and never woke again.

But according to Google, it was a popular song by Billy Joel. But I like this history version better though.

Have a good week everyone.

THE CHEESE CAKE PART 2

Good morning all, today I am going to teach you how to bake a cheese cake. The objective of today's lesson is to familiarize all of you on the procedures and techniques in making a fully functional or basically delicious cheesecake. :)

WHAT ARE THE INFREDIENTS MISS?

250g Philadelphia cream cheese
200cc plain yoghurt ( Basically the one cup of yogurt in the supermarket )
2 table spoon of lemon juice
3 table spoon of plain flour
2 eggs
90g sugar

HOW TO DO IT MISS?
1. Heat the oven to 170 degrees
2. Mix all the ingredients until it turns creamy
3. Bake for about 40-45 minutes

Once it is baked, just let it cool for a while, and then placed it in the fridge. After that..bon appetite..hehehe

THE CHEESE CAKE

As promise, heheh..this is the entry about the cheese cake I made..

PART 1 - BUYING THE INGREDIENTS

When I went to Carrefour, I forgot to bring the recipe..hehehe..but..but..I did remember most of them. I needed to buy cream cheese..and so, I bought the Philadelphia Cream Cheese. 1 box is 250g and since I was not sure how much I needed..is it 250 or more..I decided to buy 2.

Then I went home..checked the recipe and realized I forgot to buy sugar. ( and I just need 250g of cream cheese actually..) Aiyark..so, I had to go out again..just brought RM10 with me..licence and IC..malas nak bawak bag. Nway, when I arrived at the supermarket, decided to buy loyang also..since I don't know where my mom placed hers. Haa..this was the interesting part. The square shaped one cost 11.60..and the most appropriate size and price that I managed to found was 7.60..so, I bought that one la..the sugar was 1.55..just enough with my RM10..:)

PART 2 - THE MIXING AND BAKING
The mixing was no problem la..the baking was the part I worried most. You see..this is the oven that I was using..hahaha..Mak..mak..



She has the attitude of using everything till it can't be use anymore..mind you, she has another oven..a brand new one..but, she still use this thingy instead.

PART 3 - THE RESULT

Tadaaaa.....!



Kah..kah..kah...seriously..I HAVE NO INTENTION WHATSOEVER to be this lovey dovey..all I wanted to do was making a cheese cake..HONEST! Like I said, this was the only shape I found that is appropriate and within my budget at the time.

Nway, the oven was kinda unpredictable..the instruction was to bake for like 40-45 minutes and for this oven, I just decided maybe it needed just 30 mins instead. I went for my Asar and when I went back to take a look...hahahaha..! The border has turned as such..but..not that bad la kan. Hey..trial and error first la kan...

THE END

INVIGILATION WEEKEND

Hello everybody..I am completely happy and bubbly again...what a weekend. I had to work rite..so, yesterday I took leave..heheh

Saturday

Nothing much in the morning, and since I was invigilating in the evening, I managed to have a good sleep. At nearly 12, he sms-ed asking what time I'll be going to work..and asked whether we can have a drink first. I agreed and we had lunch near his house. I asked whether he wanted to come and just stayed in my office, surfing the net..he said ok..and off we went to UNITEN together.

During invigilating, I sneaked out ( I asked my colleague la..can I go out for a while..) and bought some goreng pisang, keropok lekor and drinks for him. 3 hrs exam maa..I was worried he might get hungry ye tak? I was expecting a thank you from him..but noo..what I got was a complain about my office has so many ants..duh..

That nite, 4 of my students from previous semester came over to my house for raya. My mom cooked mi hailan ( as usual ) while I fried a pack of drumnet. Both items finished in one swoop. They must be really hungry. Even though I was really tired from driving home, but talking to them was really refreshing. We laughed at jokes, gossiping about other lecturer..hahahah..! and so on. That was the first time students came over to my house. I enjoyed it very much. I am definitely sure the title "Miss" will stick with me even when they are married and having kids.

SUNDAY

Another invigilation in the evening. He didn't follow this time. Boring maybe..heheh. That nite, I accompanied him to his friend's open house. They served spaghetti and fried kuey tiaw. It was really good.

MONDAY

On leave. Cleaned up the aquarium and then...jeng..jeng..I had decided to bake a cheese cake. Hahahah..! I went to Carrefour to buy all the ingredients. Asked my mom where was the mixer and then just zup-zup..poured everything in the mixer..and baked the cake. Pictures will be post in the next entry.

My mom likes it..I like it..and...he likes it too.

FLU

My fever has turned into this annoying flu that makes me sneeze all the way through out this week. Tomorrow I have invigilation..I hope I can make it..dah la Saturday I have to come..plus Sunday is my subject's paper, so, I have to come too. Pergh..gonna be a boring weekend. I am sure he is happy to be a temporary bachelor this weekend huh? Heheh..

I am so bored at work..it's normal that we need to be pushed sometimes in order to get things done. I have a few draft thesis and research papers to read but I am just plain lazy. Huarghh...! I do feel bad being idle like this..I wish I have the drive to do some work at the moment..this is really post-raya syndrome as Cyberdad puts it.

I miss Aeda and Inaas but I miss Inaas more as she likes being cuddled by me, heheh..and I love the way she rest her head on my chest or shoulder before she fell asleep..hmm..next year, she will be 1 year plus..and of course she will be clingy to her mummy and abah..

I miss him..even though we just met last nite..*sigh* labeled me whatever la..hopeless romantic ka..jiwang karat ka..I don't mind..heheh..

MY HEAD

I am having a fever and a terrible headache..tak larat sangat..I just woke up from what seemed like a short nap...but actually I had been tossing and turning for about 2 hrs plus in my office ni..and the headache is still there.

I went to the toilet, washed my face and put on my favourite medicine..my Minyak Cap Kapak..pergh..now, here I am in front of this PC updating my blog..kepala still mengong je rase..

My weekend was ok la..I went to an open house on Sunday organized by my friend, Liz. He came with me and some of the guests thought we are married already...hahaha..!These are the people that I only meet during these sort of occasions and normally I will come alone..so, I understand la why they thought so.
Nway, that Sunday, I already felt that I was coming down with something. Then yesterday, I just felt so weak and really lazy to get up..nothing to do in the office nway as the students are having their final exams..so, I decided to take MC..hehehe

Today..I was supposed to invigilate the evening session but with this condition..I have decided to swap with my collegue..and since she has to invigilate on Saturday..uwaa..I agreed to swap with her..guess I have to come to UNITEN on Saturday la..isk..isk..

Some of my students were not happy with their carry marks...asking why the marks are so low. Pergh..students nowadays are like this la kan..hello? look at the quality of your work la..if u give me rubbish..then u get rubbish also la. And they have the nerve to say that I did not tell them to do this and that when I clearly stated in my handouts..so, still want to blame me is it? And come on la..nak spoon fed jugak ke benda2 mcm ni? Mind you, these are 3rd and final year students ok..

Arghh...my head felt like it just banged on a solid concrete wall..gotta sign off now..

RAYA

Pergh..I just finished cleaning up after 4 families arrived just now for Hari Raya and guessed what? My brother was not around..pegi mana? Pegi dating la..hmm, I told him already, people might come over today..don’t go anywhere la..but since he and his fiancé did not meet since yesterday and at the same time, they just made up after a fight, I kinda understand la..

Nway, the ones who came were Mamak Apin..my mom’s younger brother, his wife and their 4 kids, Mamak Adik, the youngest brother, wifey, and his 2 kids, Abg Dan, his wife, Kak Ina and their 3 naughty kids, Wa with his hubby and their son, Amar. Abg Dan and Wa are my cousins. The house came to life with their presence. Amar is so big for a 2 year old. According to Wa, he has to wear a 4 year old shirt and pants. Hahahah..! My mom cooked Mi Hailam, together with nasi impit and kuah kacang..given by my grandma in Melaka while we were there yesterday for the first day of raya.

While I was cleaning up just now, my mom said, “Next year, if you are not here, I don’t know how will I cope with this..” I replied, you gonna have your daughter-in-law what...

Tomorrow, I’ll be working...*sigh*..can’t believe that I just went through 5 days holiday..time flies so fast..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Raya is 3 days away..woohoo!

And so, I would like to wish all my readers, have a Happy Raya Aidilfitri and I am sorry if I had written anything that may upset any of you..thousand apologies..

Finally, take care everyone, drive carefully and happy a good holiday/rest/reunion etc..

(^_^)

MY BROTHER, AL-PAYIT

My brother Payit is on his way home for Raya today..I am always happy whenever he is coming home..heheh..dunno why la, even though he always drives me crazy with his laziness and his constant not being around the house that much, but there will always be a time on any day where he will come to my room and we would have a chat, and laughing like crazy. Normally the topic will be about:

His Fiance

We always enjoyed talking about her and I would normally backed my brother up..but now, being in a relationship myself, I tend to understand why she acted this way or that way. But she does need to understand my brother also la kan..moreover, they are getting married next year.

His Job

He has this love-hate relationship with his job. He doesn't like his boss that much, but I think he enjoys his work..and he misses KL. So, he is hoping to transfer to KL once he is married and I do hope he'll be able to do so.

Him

Heheheh..who would understand a man than another man himself kan?

Mama

This is the best topic ever. Hahahah..! We talked about our mom behind her back and I can just poured out everything to him whenever I felt stressed out about Mama. He understands how I feel because Mama used to drive him crazy too. He would recalled back the time when Mama used to do this and that..and we would just laughed. Both of us will make this sound everytime Mama starts to nag and it is so funny..kah..kah..kah..

Hmm..I can just talk about almost everything with him..about cats, about movies especially Hindi since both of us are a fan of Shah Rukh Khan..heheh. He is also my mirror whenever I dressed up for a date.

Me: How do I look?
Payit: Oh..terrible..terrible..terrible..
Me: Come la..be serious la..do I look ok?
Payit: Ok la..comel..(cute)..

Hahahaha..!

I am so happy he is coming home.

UPDATE

Sorry for being quiet suddenly..been so busy lately that I did not have the time to update my blog. Just enough to do blog hopping jek..heheh

Since this is the last week before the Hari Raya leave and the week after that will be the final exam, students kept on coming and knocking on my door. At the same, I am expecting a project submission from students this Thursday, so, they too kept bugging me with their problems. Not to mention the students having problems with their Final Year Project..so, last week, I was talking..talking and talking je..very la the thirsty..

Nway...my weekend was alright. My Saturday was spent relaxing at home. I planned to treat my parents but then, we had difficulty in trying to decide where to go. We ended up not going at all. Maybe this week when Payit is around..heheh

I woke up late on Sunday..of course la kan..my mom decided to do some house-cleaning..so tiring even though we did not do much. I was taking a short nap when my mom knocked on my door and told me that one of the fishes died. ( We had 2 fishes ). So..I went and took out the dead fish..and decided to clean the aquarium...AGAIN..but the problem was..the Anti-Clorin had finished..so, I had to go out and buy one..*sigh*..can u imagine, I went out and when I arrived home..I had to clean the aquarium la pulak..tired woo..

At the end, everything was settled..I had the chance to continue my nap, heheh..and then went out to break my fast with him. (^_^)

Arghh..can't wait for the raya leave..woohoo..!

THE BIRTHDAYS

We had a great birthday..both of us, I think. Since both dates fell in the Holy Month of Ramadhan ( and I think same goes for another couple more years ) we had dinner to celebrate our birthdays. Mine was at Secret Recipe. He ordered Chicken Mushroom something while I ordered my favorite Tom Yam Kung ( tom yam kung rocks..!! ). His meal arrived first and after a while my tom yam arrived and he said that his meal was not tasty. Since I was not fasting that day and I could see how frustrated and hungry he was..I gave him my tom yam and I ate his chicken mushroom. Which was true, not really tasty but I finished it anyway..and he was surprised that I managed to do so. Heheh..I did not wanna waste any food..and yeah, he did finish up my tom yam kung but he gave me two prawns.

Hmm..we could not really celebrate his birthday on Friday because I had to work till 10pm. But, I really really wanted to give him the present on the day itself so, I drove to his house and then in my Genny, I gave him my present and he loves it. Heheh..and I was really happy to see his face.

Celebrate his birthday on Saturday night. He wanted to eat pizza so, we went to Pizza Hut. We talked, laughed and that we took pictures. I brought a camera with me since we seldom take pictures of the two of us.

Had a surprise phone call on Friday. Gonna elaborate on that, when the time is right.

Till then..sayonara..

28 PART 2

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR

HE IS 28 TODAY

(^_^)

UPDATES COMING SOON..I PROMISE..

28

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

I'M 28 TODAY

(^_^)

DEEP IMPACT

Everybody must have this experience. How a major event in your life had changed you sometimes positively and negatively.
As for me, honestly, I never had that sort of experience but I nearly had it early this year when what I believe was ( and still ) my first love had broken my heart and at that moment, I just felt so lost and I did not think that I will ever be myself again.
Sometimes, when you are heart broken, you feel like your life has gone haywire and nothing matters anymore. Your career, your life..you just simply don’t care and you just want to disappear.

I am honestly jealous of someone who could give that impact to somebody. Crazy jealous..it shows how important he or she was in his or her life that can caused that sort of heartache.

I watched Wicker Park last night and towards the end of that movie, at the airport when Matthew said to his fiancé, Rebecca that he made a mistake of wanting to marry her..how all this while, he is still in love with this girl, Lisa and how Lisa had broke his heart…there was this dialogue from Rebecca,
“That what Matthew??...that I am not the girl that can break you heart??” then she left and Matthew went to look for Lisa.
In real life la kan..I’m sure Rebecca was so so hoping that Matthew would run after her..*sigh*

Nway…..looking at the bright side la kan..I wouldn’t know whether I will ever make that sort of impact to anybody..and I hope I will never caused that much pain to someone la kan, Insya-Allah.
I hope that I can be the girl that can be supportive, help him pick up the pieces and get him back on track..even though it may take longer for him to do so..but I know eventually he will and I do hope that part of the reason is because of my presence in his life…

THE WEEKEND IT WAS

Nway, last Saturday, I went to the University Hospital to visit my friend's 2 years old niece, Echah. She had liver cancer and had just underwent her surgery to remove about 75% of the infected liver. Poor girl...My friend had been updating me about Echah but that was the first time that I managed to pay her a visit. After the surgery, she was admitted to ICU.
I cried the first instance I saw her. She looked so fragile and her breathing was not that smooth. She was quiet but she was in pain as tears were rolling down her cheek.
He accompanied me to visit her but Echah was scared of him. Maybe she thought that he was a doctor..going to take her blood some more or push down a tube down her tiny throat again.
But I could tell that she is a strong girl and Insya-Allah, she will be fine. Read more about Echah here in her aunty's blog

On Sunday, we went out to buy food at a Bazaar Ramadhan in Cheras...yeah, that far. Gosh, so much food to choose from. I think if my sister is here, she would buy them all. Hahahaha..!
Fuh, I am having a headache right now..too many things to do towards the end of this semester and at the same time, I am feeling so sleepy..maybe I should rest my head for a while...

THE 4TH DAY

It's already the 4th of Ramadhan and from the previous post, I hoped for a smooth traffic, which was true on Monday, since at 5.15pm, I straight away punched out.
On Tuesday, I took off at 5.01pm..heheh..hoping to stop by somewhere to buy some food..but..I got stuck in this traffic jam from Ampang........until Taman Melati..and you know why? BECAUSE OF A STALLED LORRY AT THE LEFT LANE..some cars honked at the driver as they passed by the lorry..of course la, we thought accident ke aper ke..arghh..!
I reached home almost at 7pm. Me and my mom break our fast with Mi Bandung that she had cooked. Pity her..no kuih or something extra..I will try my best today..hopefully, the traffic will be much2 better.

UPDATE:
Hahaha..! You know where is the best place for me to buy some kuih? Pasar Gombak! Parking was so easy..even though not much choices at all..but I managed to buy something extra kan..murtabak and kuih buah Melaka..nyum..nyum...

Last nite around 10.15pm, I cleaned the aquarium..crazy huh? it was so dirty. I could feel like the fishes were screaming their gills out "Help..help..we can't see the light..show us the light.." hehehe..
He teased me by saying that I was disturbing the fishes while they were trying to sleep. Eleh, you sleeping also I disturb, moreover these fishes..that up until now I could not understand why la my mom keep them in the first place. So la troublesome in cleaning the aquarium. Haiya..

BUT..BUT..this morning while I walked out the door, seeing the clean aquarium suddenly made me so calm. The fishes look happy. Hahahah..! My mom was saying to them while feeding them "Clean la your house already ek.." . I guess my mom was saying thank you to me on their behalf la kot (^_^)

RAMADHAN

Another Ramadhan has arrived. I am completely grateful that I am able to meet this holy month again with good health.
I was also happy that the first day fell on a weekend..so that we can break our fast together as a family, even though it is just the 3 of us. I remembered last year, I was stucked in this terrible, horrible traffic jam on the first day of fasting. I barely made it home to break my fast. Hopefully, the traffic will be ok this year..please...

Yesterday morning during 'sahur' ( what is it in English ek?) he smsed me, saying that he recalled last year's Ramadhan when he was trying to win me over..hahahah..! I told him that according to the Islamic calendar, I had known him for a year already lor..
I felt this sudden aching in my heart, a feeling that I just could not describe, I was grateful and touched that we managed to meet Ramadhan again together, after all of what had happened between me and him.

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Last nite, I had an epiphany..that maybe what he said about me was right..that I don't understand him.
I cried because I was sad that I am not able to understand him..I mean I tried my best..really I do..but I guess..*sigh* I don't know..I feel like I lost a battle or something.
He called last nite, and I told him what I feel.
He said that he loves me.
I just said ok..and he repeats the phrase again until I replied that I love him too.
I just wonder why he loves me..

BITS AND PIECES

THE FIGHT

We had a terrible, horrible fight last weekend. We said hurtful things towards each other, and it hurts..man it hurts.
As fas as I am concern, the things that I had said to him was not true. I said those nasty things because I was mad and I said it to hurt him and in a way, I expected him to defend himself, and eventually convinced me that all my thoughts were just merely thoughts..it's not the real deal.
The things that he said about me really hurt me and I on the other hand, defended myself and of course, with both of us being angry, none of it matters. So, in a way, he was right by not defending himself, as at that particular moment, I would not believe him anyway.

*sigh*

That Saturday night, we managed to re-concile but I kept on thinking about the things that both of us had said.

THE GETAWAY

I had to go to Penang for two days to attend a technical session organized by a well-known company.

I was going by flight so he sent me to KL Central to take the KLIA Express.

In the car, most of the time, we just kept quiet.

He held my hand tight.

Nothing is needed to be said. We are fine.
Insya-Allah, we'll be fine.

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I arrived in Penang around afternoon and stayed at a hotel near Bukit Jambul. I informed my friend who is working in Kulim High Tech to come and have a chat with me. He was my ex-collegue while I was working in Sil*****.

Gosh, it was so much fun. We talked and talked for like hours in a mamak stall. We talked basically about our old frens, about our current life, our thoughts for the future and so on.

Before I am in a relationship, we always call once in a while and catch up on stuff. But, I think it's normal that once we are in a relationship, we started to deviate from other things and hence, both of us seldom contact each other. He had told me that in a way, he was a bit upset about that but then he realized that of course things will not get back to what it used to be as now, the situation is different. It applies to a lot of things.

Hmm..nway, the technical session was ok la. I can't contribute much as I am not really at that level yet la..these professors and doctors were talking all technical that it sounded to me like some sort of a different language..heheheh

There is a lot more that I need to learn.

It was a good exposure for me though.

My mind just could not run smoothly today. Wednesday blues I guessed..heheh

GENNY

Genny already underwent her plastic surgery..with the help from a credit card company known as M.O.M, but later I pay back la..little by little..at least no interest maa..

Fuh, so happy that she is shiny again. The 'scarred face' already experienced rust and well, I simply hated it. So, to wait till the end of this month would be a torture for me.

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Last nite, I started doing my budget for next month. Hmm..I spent so much last month via credit card and mind you, all not for me pun. It's for Genny and also, the fuel..which come to think of it, also for Genny la..!

The fasting month is just around the corner. I am done with my part of the fasting for last year..if you know what I mean. Heheh..

Yeay, today I'm going home at 5pm instead of the normal 5.30
Have a good weekend everybody!

CIGARETTES

He smokes and I don't mind la actually, it's just I always try to stop him from smoking like one after another. It portrays like he is in deep trouble..like some loan shark is trying to get him or something, heheh..

Let's see. Now, with the new 2007 budget, one box of 14 for that brand with "Style, Quality, Excellence" slogan cost RM5.30,( yes, I know the price lor..) and he normally buys one everyday. So, in a week, that will be RM37.10. Haiya..can treat me for a movie and drinks afterwards you see.

And can u imagine, that he could save RM1929.20 for a year? Just by quitting this habit you know. Pergh..that money can be used for a downpayment for another car...eh, can or not? Can right..?

Whenever I asked him to quit smoking, there will always be answer. Like last nite..

Him: Life is short, we have to enjoy it

I said: Yeah, life is short, let's make it shorter..yeay..!

*sigh..*

THE DAY

I was fasting last Tuesday...I was about ready to go home, when I received an sms from mom:

"Adah kena beli makanan buka posa sendiri, mama kat HKL, sakit dada"
( Adah, you have to buy food to break your fast, mama in HKL, chest pain )

What?? And she expect me to just go home happily and break my fast is it?

I called her immediately, she told me that she was in the emergency room. She cried on the phone and couldn't talk smoothly. I said I will be there as soon as I can.

I shut down my PC, performed my Asar and prayed for a smooth journey to HKL and for my mother's safety.

Alhamdulilllah, the traffic was clear. I arrived there at 6 plus. The parking facility at HKL sucks!

Nway, I called my mom and she said, they just finished doing her X-ray. After that, I went to Blok Utama, I asked the guard where is the X-ray room. I went it, no sign of her. I asked again about her from the nurses, they pointed to the room where she was in.

I saw her. With her serkup, sitting almost upright, with tubes in her nose. I called "Mak..!" She looked and saw me. I went to her and give her a hug. Both of us ended up crying. I dunno..we seldom do that. You know..hug each other. It was a Hallmark moment for us maybe.

So, I asked what happened. And here is her story.

She was having the the trouble breathing at school and so, she decided to go home early and on the way she stopped by a clinic. The doctor performed ECG...it was not looking good and so, she was immediately referred to HKL. She was sent there by someone, hence the car was left at the clinic.

I waited there with her till past Maghrib. I did not buy any food yet, but I was not hungry. She was more concerned about me though. Asking me to go out, buy food, then go home and packed her stuff. So, it was confirmed, that she will be warded.

It was quite a while for her to finally be warded. At first, she was in a 3rd class ward. The doctor wanted her to be under observation with the nurses close by. Once she was settled, I went home for a while to pack her stuff.

Oh..and also, he was there in the hospital with me once he found out that I was there with my mom. He accompanied me to fetch my mom's car, waited for me to pack her stuff and he bought me a burger and teh ais to break my fast. It was thoughtful of him to be there for me.

It was 10 something at the hospital when everything has settled. She gave me some bills for me to pay, some last minute instructions..you know, feed the fishes, lock the door..etc..yes Mak, I know Mak.. and we bid goodnite to her.

That was Day 1..and it was Papa's birthday.

DAY 2

I asked my HOD permission to go home early after lunch. My classes were all finished. First, my mom sms-ed me to get more of her stuff, second I needed to settle the bills she asked me to pay and third, I had a headache.

I felt that I could not handle this alone. I called my aunt, Acu. She was surprised that my mom did not call her as they are close sisters.
My aunt and my cousins accompanied me to visit her. She was already transferred to the 2nd class ward already. She was happy to see us. We talked and laughed, and I slept on her bed for a short while, I had a headache remember..heheh

DAY 3

I had to stay back, got some presentation. She sms-ed me, telling me that she is now in a new ward with air-cond...and also that she had lost her toothbrush..heheh..
I arrived at 7.30pm while he waited for me at the hospital. He bought for my mom blueberry cheese tarts. Nyum..nyum.. we talked for a while, and she said that she might be discharged tomorrow (today). She also told me that Acu paid her a visit again that evening.

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I visited her, both evening and nite except morning la kan..NO DOCTORS on sight for me to ask about her condition. It was only yesterday that he asked one of the nurses on when can my mom be discharged. She told us that they would not know as my mom was just transferred to the ward. The doctor will only be in the next morning. The nurse opened her file, and she told us that according to the doctor my mom has UNSTABLE ANGINA.
My mom told me that she was given injections as the treatment, and I asked the nurse what were the injections for. She told me that it has something to do with making the path for blood to flow smoothly..no blockage or some sort.

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This morning, I started to search via Google: UNSTABLE ANGINA

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My mom likes to keep things to herself. Even this news, she did not want to tell my bro and my sis. But being me, I told my brother. He called instantly and talked to my mom. It came to a point where my mom cried..because my brother cried. My mom passed the phone to me and I asked why are u crying? He said: "Of coursela, mama is in the hospital". I reassured him that mama is fine, but if you are worried, then come home la and honestly, Payit, Kak Adah wants you to come home and help. Penat tau sorang2..

To KD, I'm sorry for not telling u earlier..even Payit knows on Day 2.

I just wants her to come home and rest.

And finally celebrate Papa's birthday together..

'E' DAY AND GENNY

Sorry for the long hibernation..been very busy last week..but a lot of stories to tell.

WEDNESDAY – pre-engagement day

Took leave to set up the house for the engagement of my brother Al-Payit. Just a bit of dusting here and there. Removing some furnitures, throwing some unnecessary stuff. Done by afternoon. Went out with my sister to Carrefour. That nite, went out to Tupai-Tupai, a seafood restaurant. Me, my sis, my bro-in-law and his brother and...HIM. He treated us. Hahaha..! He just got his first paycheck. I told him, I’ll slide a couple of bucks in your hand if you need any. Hehehe..

THURSDAY – engagement day

Started off by putting on ‘new’ carpets..vacuuming here and there. All set and ready. People and relatives came, HE CAME. Hahahah..!With a friend of course. Whispers here and there. Smiled, nodded, talked and time to go. He did ok. Still shy la of course. But the good thing was that he clicked well with my brother in-law. That’s a good thing. I want him to have a friend. Even though he is a friend that comes to visit him for like once every 4 years. Heheh..

The ceremony started by 3.30pm. Our family went to her house which was like a few steps away..same housing area..hahahah..the theme from our side was orange and the theme from their side was blue. My brother was nervous. Yeah, u should be man, this is a big step. This is the girl, the one. No play-play ok!

I was so tired that day. Cleaning up..thank God for a helper that my mom brought from the school canteen. She helped a lot with the dishes and all.
That nite, even though I felt like I just wanted to slam myself onto bed, seeing him will be the best therapy for me. We went out for dinner and after that, I just felt happy..so happy. Alhamdulillah. Everything went well.

FRIDAY

I was on leave because of fatigue and also, to fix my Genny. Well, she had been having some trouble lately. It was time to fix her and my oh my..they fixed her up well....$$$$$

SATURDAY

Lunch and movie. The movie..jeng..jeng..jeng..a Hindi movie by Karan Johar. Kabhi Alveda Naa Kehna. Hahahah..starring Shah Rukh Khan, Rani Mukherjee, Preity Zinta and Abhishek Bachan. A good movie. But the songs were not that entertaining as usual.
The message that the director wanted to convey is simple. The foundation of a marriage is love...or basically, marry the one you love because you might find someone you love after you are married. Hmm..I dunno whether to agree or disagree because both of our concerns were basically, how the affair started off in the first place.

That nite, I sent my brother off back to Kelantan..partly hitched to a girl.

SUNDAY

I spent the day with my sister. She wanted to do some last minute shopping before flying off back to Dublin. We went to Warta in Bangi. We started shopping at 12 pm I think and it was almost 2.30 pm when we decided to go home.

I parked in the basement and on the way out, there was a slope going up before turning right to exit. As I drove up the slope, there was a stupid motorist coming from the front which was supposed to be a no exit for them! As I tried to avoid the motorist, my Genny hit the wall bad and..and..*sigh*..well..basically, my Genny got a scarred face. A very..very..scarred face. Arghh…! I was so damn mad! And I am more mad as I could not scream and yell at the stupid motorist..!

I was upset as I just fix her up you know..I mean..*sigh*..I think all of you know what I mean..

Nway, that evening I went to see him for a drink and just kept silent as he tried to comfort me by making silly jokes that actually did make me laughed.

That nite, went to the airport...sent my sister, Aeda, Inaas and my brother in law off to Dublin..I cried as I waved them from afar. I mean, the reason was basically, this whole week had been like a dream come true for me and I think for my mom and dad. All of us, one family, under one roof.

And I came back home to the house, feeling so empty.

But hey, life goes on.

And I’m so grateful that I have YOU.

MY 'KEBAYA' WEEKEND

I was working last Saturday, as expected, not productive at all. I was intrigued to read this one particular blog and so, I read the archive until almost 1pm..after that, I did a bit of printing for next Monday.

Ahaa..yes, good news, TNB has finally approved 5 days working per week...! Gosh, you just could not imagine how excited I was upon hearing the news. Hahaha...!

Nway, after work, went to Chor's wedding in Kajang. Great food! After Asar, went out with him to IKEA to buy a wedding present for our friend. It was nice discussing with him and arguing on what to buy and then finally making decisions together. It was our first shopping spree. Heheh..I dun like to shop with him as I might take my own sweet time and bore him. Vice versa for him too I suppose.

We decided to buy a few stuff and put them in a big box. It will be like hamper kinda thing. We bought a set of knives together with the wood thingy, a table lamp, a wall clock and a picture frame. I think it was a great idea. Kudos to him laa..

Also, I would like to add that I was shopping with him wearing a baju kurung since we went right after I arrived home in Sentul after the wedding...heheh..thank God IKEA has aircond and the weather was splendid.

SUNDAY

Our friend's wedding was in the afternoon. I wore a kebaya..! Pergh..terpaksala control ayu..boring..boring..the kebaya was made of the cloth that he gave as a souvernir when he went to Langkawi last year..and he had been bugging on when I am going to wear it. So, I thought, I'll wear it at the wedding la of course.
The weather was not by my side. I was sweating man..and I brought a T-Shirt and my jeans in case I wanna change later. After the wedding, we decided to watch a the movie 'Click'. So, when we stopped by the mosque for Asar, I asked him whether I could change and he said no. He said "Please wear it, for me"
Haiya..that "for me" phrase really..really works la. How can I still want to change when he said that. Hahaha..! But I told him, let me wear this flat shoes ok. I couldn't stand wearing this high heel shoes anymore. He hesitated at first, but you can't win them all..heheh..
So, there I was at the cinema, very obvious to the public that I just came back from a wedding feast. Hehehe..
The movie was so funny and hilarious la. And full of drama too. I cried when when the scene shows that his mom is still around. Isk..isk..

MOCK INTERVIEWS

Ideas..ideas..where r u..? *Ting*
Hmm..I was asked or forced, heheh..to become a panel for a mock interview held by the lecturers of Technical Communications here in UNITEN. I have been doing it for two days now. Today will be the last day and it will be for 3 hrs..*sigh*

And these students..let me tell you..most of them don't do research about the company. ( we are using a real-life advertisement ok and by a multinational company some more..) It's a position of a process engineer in a semiconductor company...and I would expect them to AT LEAST know the shape of a silicon wafer. One of them even thought that it is a shape of SQUARE. How to differentiate these wafers? Thickness? Diameters? They should know...this is the product of the company maa..

Nway, I am not an expert la in this interview thingy pun. My job was to ask technical questions.

And yes, their English..grammar mistakes all over the place.

Hmm..I guess that's the problem by taking engineering course. They just have to practice solving problems. Nothing much to do with communication. Of course they understand what is written in the text book and in the notes..but to converse..not really la. We the lecturers do wanna make them have projects and presentation but no time la..we have to finish the syllabus. So..lecture..lecture..lecture..

SISTER IS HERE

Pergh..what a weekend it had been. I felt very fulfilled..and happy!

SATURDAY

Woke up at 5am to fetch my sister from the airport. The flight was scheduled to land at 6.40am. But then, me and my mom decided to go after Subuh instead..so, I continued my sleep. Heheh..Reached there around 6.45am. After almost 1 hour of waiting..I saw my sister. Aeda screamed "Mak Ngah..!" and gave me a big hug. Made all the boredom of waiting for them went away..awww...!

We went to the Kajang house and we took Inaas home to Sentul with us as my sister, my bro-in law and Aeda were going to Ipoh for the wedding ceremony of her bro-in law, Chor. It would be a hassle for my sister to take care of a baby in the middle of a feast.

Inaas is so cute and adorable. She thought I was her mummy..and whenever I stood up to go anywhere, she would cry. :)

On the same day, my aunt, Mak Long..was holding a 'kenduri arwah' for my late Pak Long. So, when Inaas was sleeping, I went out to go to her house to give a helping hand. Not much..but it's important to show your face right? heheh..

Managed to steal some time to see him. And we had a talk..a heart to heart talk. Hmm..it's going to be in my memory forever..and it all ended well.

That nite, nothing much, went to the feast, eat2..talk2..and went home and arrived around midnite. But it quite hard to put Inaas to sleep..she slept on my shoulder and whenever I wanted to put her down, she would wake up and hold my shoulder tightly..but eventually..she went zzzzzzzzzzz....

SUNDAY

Went out to watch a movie...REMP-IT..! Hahaha..it was his idea..hihihi..Okla, not so bad. The script was good BUT the ending was so abrupt. I hated the ending.

Nway, after the movie, I washed my Genny, repaired my watch..and had a drink with his friends. Got an sms from my sister, they were in Sentul already.

After Maghrib, me, my sis and my bro-in-law went to The Curve. He wanted to buy uglies from the Canterbury shop. Thank god as there were still some left. The total amount spend there was around RM700 plus.. I told my sister, I could buy a washing machine with that amount. Hahaha..!

I missed my favourite series, Gol & Gincu. Only managed to watch the last 15 minutes. I am beginning to feel a bit uneasy with the episodes. Too open minded. I mean, Malaysia is still an Islamic Country ok? Yes..free speech..open mind but we have our limits and borderlines. :)

TIRED

Yesterday, I had to stay back at work till almost 10 pm since there was a test for a total of 370 students. Hmm..very la the tired..I arrived home..feeling like crashing straight into bed..but, of course not la..I took a bath, cleaned up the kitchen, took care of the laundry and finally had my dinner. Ended up sleeping at 11.30pm.

The preparation for my brother's engagement is not yet started. My mom bought 2 MORE cloths since she can't decide which one to give to the future daughter in law. You see, my future in law already bought the cloth herself and as for our side, we also bought a cloth for my brother and then we exchanged. Easier la kan? But noo..my mom bought 2 MORE and kept asking me which one is nicer. Gosh..I don't like both of them..maybe later when my sister is home, she can have another opinion.

My mom always asked me these questions the moment I stepped into the house. I am tired and just want to freshen up myself a little bit you see. She always asked me at the wrong time and so I can't concentrate and sometimes, I just answered: "not nice la" "why la u bought another one, mak?" pity her...at this moment, I am the only person she can relate to..I do wanna help her, and give my ideas, etc..

Cepat2 la korang balik...!

UPDATE

SATURDAY

A working Saturday..quite productive. Then, went to visit my friend at Selayang Hospital. He has his thyroid removed. So, he couldn’t really speak that much. That time, I really enjoyed teasing him and showing him the food that I was eating. Had fun. He talked by typing on his phone and showed them to me. He typed very la the slow.

After that, got a call. He was busy helping his friend moved to a new home. Then, his friend wanted to treat everybody for helping and I was invited. Hahahah..! We had KFC at Ampang. It’s been a while since I hang out with his friends. Everybody was busy..and at those times, he was away from KL. So, it was nice.

SUNDAY

We watched a Korean movie “ A Moment To Remember”. Ayah, you gotta watch this . It was so touching and so saaaadd...! I cried...



This is the story:

At only age 27, just after marrying Chol-Su, Su-Jin is diagnosed with Alzheimer's. She may not have long to live, but she is determined to make the most of her remaining time together with her loving husband

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So, when I watched this movie, the fact that the girl “has an eraser in her head”, that she will not remember her husband, and eventually herself was just so heart wrenching.
The husband even told her: “ It will be like having a first date everyday”..huhuhu..similar to the movie "50 First Dates" minus the comedy part..heheh

THE MEETING

Yesterday I met her. I’ve been waiting to meet her for so long. And with Allah’s will, I finally meet her. It was only for a short while but it was more than enough. I was a bit shy at first. I was not being my bubbly self of course. We could not talk much. The ambience was noisy, there was a karaoke going on. The table was filled with other people, staring at us, at me actually.
Then, as I wanted to make a move, she followed and that was the time to talk to her. Not much. But I think it was okay la.


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Yup, last nite I met his mom. (^_^)

Okay, let’s start from the very beginning. His mom was here for a course. She stayed in a hotel in KL…and he brought me to visit her last nite and she was having some sort of BBQ function..hence the karaoke and the noisy ambience. But she knew I was coming la. I was quiet in the car..nervous..should I called her Aunty or Makcik.. call her whatever you want. Well, I called her by her name then..hehehe..up to you ..huh, thanks for the tip buddy..heheh..
I decided to call her makcik. I mean in my family, I called all my aunts makcik..heheh

I dunno whether I have made a good impression or not. I was being myself. I just smiled at her whenever our eyes met...hahaah..! Asyik sengih mcm kerang busuk. ( hmm..why they refer sengih with kerang busuk ek..what’s the connection..I wonder..heheh..)
She is so like my mom. The way she look, the way she dressed. She has that stern face just like mom’s...but she is nice of course. She did asked me where I work..but that was towards the end. Like I said it was the ambience.
He did wish that he could do better in introducing me to his mom. Well, in my opinion, yesterday was okay la for a start.
At least now that his mom knows me, I hope I can pull her mom to be in my side. Mwaha..Mwaha..Mwahahahahah..!

BITS HERE AND THERE

SATURDAY

On Friday, he asked me whether I wanna come with him to Kuantan. He had some business to do there.I said yes of course.

8.30am - I called him and he said that he could not reach his friend to re-confirm the business deal. Maybe he is still sleeping

10 something am - He sms-ed. Still could not reach his friend. He added that if by noon, no answer, then, the trip will be cancelled.

12 noon - Another sms. Confirmed no trip. Asking me whether I would like to have lunch and watch a movie. Hehehe..

So, we watched "The Break Up" at Cathay Cineplex Damansara. Kinda dangerous to watch it with your boyfriend. You tend to support Jennifer Aniston and vice versa. We ended up arguing about it. And that argument lead to something else. Something that did not relate to the movie at all...and I ended up bursting into tears. Crazy!

SUNDAY

He went to Kuantan. He invited me to join him but I couldn't as some relatives were coming over to discuss about my brother's engagement. Is my brother around? NOOO...! All he knows is that when he comes home, everything is done. Isn't that right Payit? Hehehe..
So, me and my mom had to clean up the house..making it more spacious. Prepare the plates and glasses. The discussion took only like half an hour but the amount of energy that was required to make it a success did not do justice at all.

I tried calling him but I could not reach him. The last sms from him was at 5pm. Telling me that he was on the way back. I called at 7, failed. Maybe his battery went flat. I tried at 9.30, failed. Then, at 10, I tried again. Failed. I started to get worried sick. Consoling myself saying that his battery went flat. I prayed that he is ok, that he is safe and suddenly, "tet..tet..tet..tet".
"I just arrived".
Phew...!

MONDAY

I still have an aching back. My feet hurts. I am having a headache. Feel like taking a half day today..*sigh*
This morning I am so grumpy. The students are really starting to get on my nerves. They did not study. Expect to be spoon fed all the time. Making careless mistakes with their maths at which I have to point it out when they could not get the answer. Why can't they just re-check their steps...arghh..!

Tension..tension..!

NEAR AND FAR

HE GOT A JOB IN KL..yeay!Yeay! Finally..! I mean he wants a job in KL soooo...badly..so, I'm happy that he got what his wish for.

Ok..now he is going to be nearer to me. What I'm afraid is that, when we are apart..it is better..yes, better! We have less fights and I am more patient now compared to back then.

I pray that with this new turn of event, we will not get back to square one. You know la, women ni..tend to make a big deal out of everything, we have issues you know. Hehehe..

Of course, the good thing is, I can see him WHENEVER I want. He told me that he's gonna miss I***. Well, of course la, when you are there, you miss KL, and vice versa. If u ask me, right now, I miss my house in Sentul already..ok..ok..not the same. But he will always go back there since that is his hometown, so, no worries dear.

Seriously, you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
I will miss the feeling of missing him so badly when he is away.
I will miss the excitement of looking forward to see him during weekends.
I mean, I hated those feelings, why can't he be nearer? Why does he has to go away?

Now, that he is going to be here, I feel a mix of happiness and a bit of sadness. Like I'm losing something.

Crazy huh?

Yup.

HOPE

Last weekend was spent working and relaxing at home.

Nothing much.

Been having emotional breakdown lately.
I cried even for a slightest, silliest things.

Love is an emotional workout. Well, too much workout I’d say.

Two of my close friends are getting engaged after raya…

My brother is getting engaged this Merdeka Day.



Can somebody hug me please..?

HIGH AND LOW

Yesterday, one of my colleagues, I shall call him JS..he is a senior lecturer and he has been in this university since I was doing my degree. Nway, he is one the 7 lecturers that are teaching the same subject as myself. He was a bit confused yesterday and he felt that he was left in the dark, as everybody else knows what's going on. I felt bad as he is a senior and normally they are a bit sensitive..heheh..so, I emailed him, apologized and explained to him that we did send the info to everybody. Maybe he overlooked the email or something. After sending the email, I went to his room, and explained again. He looked into his email archieve, and walla, the info was there. He just did not read it thoroughly. Haiya..

It felt good though to show people that we do care and don't want any hard feelings whatsoever right. And then, he sent this email to everybody in the group, and I laughed like crazy:

"It's OK ! *Adah ( of course he puts my real name la ), the personality that is always smiling and bubbling with joy , has clarified and made it clear now."

Hahaha..bubbling with joy? I guess that’s me. I felt something good inside..something that I haven't felt in a long while.

Well, that was the high note of the day.

The low note..

My final year student came by to discuss with me about his project proposal...then he said something that was quite disturbing.

“I dah siap semua..Cuma part yg ni AKU tak dapat buat..”

AKU?? AKU?? Hello!!! You are speaking to your supervisor ok. Where are your manners DUDE?? I know la..we are like only 5 years apart..err..maybe more..but please la. Attitude man..attitude..

He did say the word AKU to me again and I said slowly to him:

“Jangan la cakap AKU…”

He smiled..feeling embarrased I supposed and said..SAYA..

Hmm..what happened to teenagers nowadays huh?

Cyberdad’s children called the Ice-Cream seller “Encik” ( Mr. ). We still have hope. (^_^)

SAD

I am feeling a bit down today. It is even raining here this morning.

I am sad because of the death of the actor Hani Mohsin at the age od 41 years old. I don't think my sister knows him..but nway..I have always liked his acting and the way he carried himself in this industry. There were no bad gossips about him and he seems like a caring father to his only child.

Reading about the way he passed away was even more heart-wrenching. He was boarding at Terminal LCCT to go for a holiday with his daughter to Langkawi..when he collapsed in front of her. The panicked Hani Karmila called her mother ( ex-wife to Hani Mohsin ), Tiara Jacquelina, and she rushed to the airport. But then, everything was too late.

Maybe it is right to say that only the good die young.

May you rest in peace Hani Mohsin, and may Allah bless you.

FEAR

I am sorry if I impose pressure on you.

I am sorry if it seems that I don’t trust you.

I am sorry that I wasn’t supportive enough for you.

I am sorry for making everything evolves around me.

I am sorry for being selfish.

I am sorry..

I am just scared..

Are you as scared as I am?

CONGRATULATIONS!

Alhamdulillah, my sister in Dublin has got a job that will bring extra income for her family. I am happy that I don't have to hear her whinings anymore..hahaha..just kidding sis..I am happy for you. So, what present you gonna bring for me? hehehe..

Nway, I totally forgot that they are coming back again this August. Yeah sis, I forgot..heheh..in less than a month, I will be seeing Aeda and Inaas again. I can't wait to pinch that chubby cheek of Aeda and cuddling Inaas like crazy. Heheh..

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I miss my friends..I miss the good old days. I miss my A-level moments, I miss my uni years..I want to be carefree again..

I FEEL GOOD (^_^)

This is a feel good post.

Every morning, I will go to this one particular café near my department, and ordered my teh ais. The seller is this Indonesian lady. Very motherly..I like her because she always smiles when she sees me and knows exactly what I want. Heheh..

Nway, this morning, while paying for my teh ais, she asked me “Are you married?” and I just smiled and said “No..not yet”. She smiled back and said “Whoever gets you is lucky, you are very beautiful” and I automatically said “ What?!” and we laughed like crazy.

Hahahah..I’m still smiling thinking about it. I know..I know..she wants me to keep coming back for her teh ais..heheh..but let me savour the moment, please.

I like that lady even more now.

WOMEN AND THEIR WORRIES

During her early 20s, being single, she will worry on when will she find a boyfriend..Where is he? How will she meet him? How can she learn to answer the questions from her relatives and friends on settling down and so on? On her late 20s, she started to give up, she started to think, argh..I won’t worry my life away but who is she kidding huh?

Next phase, she finally found someone. Someone that she believes is the one for her. She is happy..they go out, have fun..but after a while, she waited and waited..and her worries re-appear. This time they are different. When will she meet his parents? Doesn’t he want to meet hers? Is she not the one for him? Is he still trying to test the field? When will he popped out the question? And those questions haunt her until she finally just can’t breath.

Oh..how happy that she is now married to the guy she loves. Finally huh? No more worries. Honeymooning, being together all the time. Isn’t life great? Yeah rite! Child? When will she be able to have a baby? They have been trying for a while but why still no baby and of course fingers will be pointing to the wife first. There must be something wrong with her. She may have some sort of illness or something. Will her husband starts to think of marrying someone else on the basis that she can’t conceive?

When they eventually manage to have a child, her worries will start as soon as the child arrives. Will she be a good mother to this precious baby? Will the baby turn out to be the best person that he/she could possibly be? Will her husband starts to think of marrying someone else now on the basis that she can’t provide enough time for him anymore?

Gosh, women and her worries huh? Unreasonable?

Of course, a woman in love can't be reasonable--or she probably wouldn't be in love.

Get it?

FEELING BLUE

Today is the last day I'll be seeing him. Tomorrow, he will go home and I don't know when will I see him again. He is facing so many problems, starting with his handphone, his car, his job and soul searcing..*sigh*

His handphone has this problem of always having a flat battery whenever a call comes in, or sometimes he can't even charged it. So, at times I could not even reach him and it drives me crazy, with anger...dissappointment. I mean, it's one thing if he can't wish me good night or good morning because he is too busy with work or he has no credit left. But it's another different story if I COULD NOT EVEN REACH HIM to do the same thing.

That's what happened this morning. His hp had gone flat, so my sms was not delivered to him. But he is at home, he can always call my office right? Finally, I ended up calling his house and just asked him, what happened? what's wrong with your hp?

Honestly, I am upset that this is our last day, and he had started it in a low note.

I am just feeling so sad right now.

I have a class at 12. Need to pull myself together.

THE MUMMY RETURNS (^_^)

Alhamdulillah, after 3 days of delay, my mom finally arrived in KL last nite. She took a flight from Casablanca-Doha-Singapore and from Singapore, they provided a bus to KL. She reached KL around 10.30pm.

Hmm..what a relief. I thought she would stuck there forever. Can't imagine my Parliament without its PM. Yes, no more waking up early to prepare coffee for Papa, no more waking up early to prepare food for my hungry cats..hahaha..! I'm free at last. But, you know, it was not that bad actually. Not bad at all. Except the part where I had to iron Papa's shirt and pants for the whole week. (^_^)

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Writer's Block. Yup, that's what I am having. I have so many things that I wanna share but I can't organize my thoughts.

Oh yes, he is here for the whole week and I have been seeing him since Monday. Hahaha..!

I will see him for either a drink in the evening or dinner. We watched the movie, Superman Returns last Tuesday. Hmm..I was soooooooo..sleepy watching it. The film was so dragging that I just wish he ended up dead. Hahahah..! Nway, I realized that I am old..that I am no longer amazed at seeing him saving lives, lifting planes, flying like a speeding bullet just the way I used too. I used to rewind the scenes when he saves the day. He was so heroic back then. Well, I read that there will be a sequel. Hopefully, more action, more dialoque from the main character himself, and not just "Err..Lois" "Hi" "Is everybody alright?" Heheh..

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I am watching The Wimbledon Championship. Anybody? Heheh.. I hope Amelie Mauresmo wins the title and of course I want Roger Federer to win again. He is such a good player.


Err..I guess the blockage has been removed..hehehe..

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I am working tomorrow..!

MY WEEKEND

I had a very relaxing weekend. I did not feel like going out, I just watched DVDs and cooked for my dad and my brother. I wanted to cook my brother’s favorite dish which is Gulai Ayam ( a chicken dish ). Since my mom is not around, I think I should try to cook that dish for him. Awww..what a good sister huh? Heheh..
Nway, I called my cousin and she gave the ingredients and the methods. So, that Saturday, I cooked my first Gulai Ayam..hahaha..! I am actually scared to cook any dish that uses coconut milk as I might spoil it you know. But hey, everything has its first time and there it was, my first Gulai Ayam.

RESULT
I left it on the fire for too long so, there was not much gravy left. Why? Because I was watching the movie 16 Blocks on DVD..heheh..so, my brother was complaining of the lack of gravy BUT he then said, the chicken tasted nice, just the way my mom always cooks it. (^_^) Yes! I take that as a compliment.

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My mom was supposed to arrive yesterday. But there was something wrong with her flight. It was delayed until further notice. She sms-ed me the news from Casablanca on Sunday and said that she didn’t know when will her flight to Malaysia will be. I sms-ed her again yesterday morning, without a reply. Last nite, I sms-ed her and finally she replied saying that her flight will be on Wednesday and that she is doing fine. What a relief.

Hmm..talking about Casablanca, whenever I told people that my mom is stuck in Casablanca, they will go like waa..really? Hahaha..! I mean what’s up with that? Then I realized that this is because of the old romantic movie Casablanca that is so popular, hehehe.. but do you know that the movie was entirely made in US? None of it was shoot in Morocco. ( Hihihi..I just found out that Casablanca is in Morocco )

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Yesterday was also the first day of the new semester. My class is at 8 in the morning and as I predicted, the attendance was lousy. I told my students that if you can’t commit to my 8 o’clock class, please change your section, as this subject is very important for your next semester onwards. ( and less papers for me to mark also..hehehe )
The students? Not bad. Looks like a good bunch. Hopefully la..

INTERVIEW

Got a phone call from him when I arrived home yesterday evening. He was on the way to KL via bus as he has an interview in Puchong this morning. I offered to pick him up at the LRT station and the plan was for me to fetch him at his aunt's house on my way to work this morning. I took the exit that I normally take when I used MRR2 to come to work. This conversation took place:

Him: Why are you taking this exit?
Me: The toll is cheaper
Him: Yeah, but look at the jam.
Me: It's not jam la dear, it's just the traffic light.
Him: Really?

After the traffic, there was an unusual crawl. And I began to get a bit upset because come on, who likes a sudden traffic jam when usually the road is clear.

Me: What's with this jam? Normally it's not like this.
Him: Because I said so.

Eeeeii...! I felt like punching him you know. Here I am driving, dealing with this jam, and he couldn't be supportive. I KNOW he was joking but considering the condition that I had to face, I just put on an angry face. Then I realized there was a stall lorry that blocked one of the lanes and so I had to switch lane.

Me: It's that bloody lorry that caused this jam.

When I started talking like that, he then realized that I was upset. He said that he was just joking..I support you, I support you. Hahahah..!My poor poor boyfriend...I am too sensitive la..sorry ok dear.

Nway, after I punched in my punch card, we went for breakfast. Stayed in the office for a while and again he surfed the net..Then, off we went to Puchong because the interview was at 10am. Not long after we arrived at the company, the interview took place.

Hmm..I don't like the environment that much. The office was ok la. After a while, the interview ended. He did not look happy about it. The interviewer told him that they wanted at least 1 year experience in the field. However, he did have similar experience, and he said that he required minimal training. He was just upset that, if you want experienced people, then, don't call me for an interview la. Don't waste my time. Well, I just told him to relax and be patient la. ( look who's talking huh? hahahah..)

We stopped by at McD, then I dropped him at an LRT station as he had something to do in KL. From there, he will head back home. No weekend dates for me this week. Isk..isk..isk..

I am sad to see him go again. But at least, we got to spend time and I am truly happy that I could support him the best way that I can. He did apologize for just visiting like a 'touch n go'..well, I didn't mind at all.

Ok then, have a good weekend everybody. My brother is home, so, I will not be that bored. Heheh..

FALLIN'

Sometimes, whenever I read a blog or even in real life, I get to know about other couples and their relationship, I could not help but feeling a bit jealous and felt that they are so lucky.
We have been through so much here and there, and there were times when I hoped that everything just fall into places just like these stories that I have read and heard. Why can't it goes as easy as them? Why do our relationship has to be so hard? Am I making it hard for myself? People tell me to take it easy? What? How? Why?

I guess maybe it's hard for us now, and maybe it will be easier for us in some aspect later on. I can only pray, hope and work at it the best I can.

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I miss my mom..

IN THE MOOD FOR CUT AND PASTE

Not in the mood to update even though I have a lot of things that I want to 'scream' about. Nevertheless, I have some quotations here that are quite interesting..hehehe..

Men and Women

“Sure God created man before woman, but then again you always make a rough draft before creating the final masterpiece.”

“God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him”

I like this one:
“A woman in love can't be reasonable--or she probably wouldn't be in love.”

Happiness

“Happiness is not the absence of problems but the ability to deal with them.”

“There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved.”

Loads more at this website

WALLA

I spend my Saturday morning, at the office, doing nothing except changing my blog template. There are just so many here that you can choose. All are creative and nice, I didn’t know which one to decide on. I settled for this one as it looks very cheerful, kan?

Esophoria – I looked up in the dictionary..it is a medical term?? Yikes..something to do with tendency of your eyes to turn inward a little bit. It occurs under certain conditions such as fatigue.

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I am a bit in an off mood today. Gonna hang out with my cousin in Semenyih to get my mind off some stuff. My mom already went for a trip to Spain and Morocco for the whole week, organized by the Education Ministry. Man! She got to travel more than I do. Maybe I should be a school teacher instead huh?

PMS FOR MEN?

He was in a bad mood for the past couple of days and he jokingly said that he was having PMS. But still, maybe there is a time of the month for guys too huh?

So I did some research via Google.Guys actually DO experience the time of the month known as IMS. The full name is Irritable Male Syndrome , I just LOVE the full version of it!

Hahahaha..! Read more here.

Still love him to bits! (^_^)

THE POWER OF BLOGGING

I started to blog since 2004 and from that point I started to blog-hop here and there. Through out these 2 years, I get to ‘know’ some people..not really know them but I know what their life is all about.

For example, I followed Cyberdad's blog since his and his wife found out that they were having another baby..and months after that, walla..their baby Natrah arrived..and I shared the joy with them, and I kept reading to know what is the next destination.

Another blogger is Mak Andeh. I followed her stories with the brood. Their joy and laughter and yeah, she wrote in a way that made me cry or smile or laugh depends on what they were going through. From her blog, I can tell that she is one tough lady with 3 bright and sometimes naughty kids. Heheh..

Now, Bergen. I have been following his blog ever since my sis recommended it. I read his archives to really know what this guy is all about. He is quite an interesting character. A man, looking for the love of his life ( aren’t we all? ). I really enjoyed his writings. Now, he is in love. He found his special someone and he is trying his very best to win her heart. When I read about this, I could not help but feeling truly glad and happy for him that his search has finally stop and hopefully will never start again.

It’s amazing how ‘strangers’ affect our lives in the sense that we could share their joy and sorrow. We wait and wait for them to finally find what they are looking for by reading what they had to go through step by step based on their writings.

I just hope that I will be able to share my joy and sorrow with all of you too. I am still flying and I don’t know when will I be able to reach my destination and I hope that all of you can continue flying with me.

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In the real world, something else has come along. My good old friend, A has met a girl that he used to like back in the university. He wanted her to be referred to as L. ( L = love, mwahahahah..! ) They lost contact for the past 4 years and they bumped into each other last week and exchanged phone numbers. He informed me about all these last nite and we had a chat. He felt that there were no fireworks when he met her again. However, he said that when they went for their first date ( heheh..) he still likes to hang around with her. She is fun; she is still the same as before, the stuff that he used to like is still there. So, what’s wrong?
Hmm..this is tricky. I told him that maybe he was still in shocked that he met her again after 4 years. Once it is settled, he may be able to reflect on what really happened. I truly believe in this fate, romantic, it’s meant for each other thingy, I mean, they met accidentally after 4 years; both are single, what are the odds of that? The timing is perfect. I hope that he will give it a go. You have so many hang-out friends man, it's time to find your someone ok!

GENNY..GENNY..GENNY

Boy..I had a rough morning..well, not that rough la. First, I woke late, 6.30am! My mom knocked on the door so hard that I woke up like a cat trying to escape a vacuum cleaner from sucking it..hahaha..crazy..but true( I love to do that to my cat, hahahah..! ), Nway, I woke up and asked what time is it? Had my shower and as I finished dressing up and finally everything had settled in, I had a headache because of the sudden rush. Nway, went to my Gennifer and there! The battery went flat. I could not start the car. Genny..Genny..Genny..what's wrong with you baby?
And seriously, at the same time, I saw money with wings flying around me, hahahah..!

My mom had already left and I left her 3 missed calls. I was too sleepy and tired to be angry, sad or frustrated. I just decided to wait until 8 something and called the servis center near my house. The mechanic came at 9 something, jump-start my car and I drove Gennifer to the servis center. Had to change the battery..and everything was done at 10 plus in the morning. Another half day gone..

(^_^) (^_^) (^_^) (^_^)

Nothing much to update..I had a blast during the last 4 days! (^_^)
The not so good news is that now I miss him terribly, and I hate that..heheh..

Nway, I’m so bored to death in the office right now. I am fasting..so, I am sleepy at the same time. Boredom+sleepiness is a bad combination. You know, he told me that if he has all this free time, he will look at the stock market, analyze and do some calculation etc..well, yeah, of course la, he loves to do that and I know he would enjoy it very much.

Stock market huh? Interesting..Looking at the market right now..I don’t think so la and I have no idea how to do all that. The basic rule, you bought with this price and if it gets to a higher price, you sell and you get the money, yeay! But..but..the decision in buying the potential stock is a whole new dimension for me.

Gosh, I can’t wait for the new semester to start. Fresh faces to see, hopefully faces that are eager to learn. I can’t wait to start teaching. 3 months break man! Do I still have what it takes? Heheh..mcm nak jadi America’s Next Top Model la pulak..

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I went to a wedding in Melaka yesterday. It was quite grand and the food was nice. My friend, J is from Kedah and when she did her ceremony in Alor Setar, I could not make it. I was very disappointed, as I always wanted to celebrate her big day at her place. So, it was very important that I came to the groom’s side in Melaka. She looked different with all the make-up, I hardly recognized her..heheh..I wish them well and hope that they will lead a happy and prosperous life together.

VISIT

I went to visit two students that I supervised for their industrial training. Both were in KL and near my house. Heheh..I was happy as I did not have to be in the office and just went for the visit. All I needed to do is to note down the visit in my punch card. Yes, UNITEN still uses the punch card system. Hehehe..

The two visits went well. One student has to do a routine job everyday..hmm, he likes it but I wish that he could learn more during his 3 months practical. Another one gets to travel to a few states during his practical. But his job scope is mainly on setting up the infrastructure for a new branch, which although not related to electrical engineering, he learned a lot about safety in a workplace and what are the specs that needed to be met when an office need to be set up.

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I too got a rather surprise visit from someone. (^_^)

He told me on Wednesday nite, that he had to go to Gurun, Kedah and will only be back on Friday evening. I thought that there is a big possibility that he may not be able to come to KL this weekend. Yesterday morning, I called him just to know where he was; he said that he was approaching Rawang already. I was like Rawang? OK, Rawang is South, you were supposed to be heading North, aren’t you?
So, there, the secret was out. I know that he wanted to surprise me by coming to KL and I kinda spoilt that surprise by calling him. He HAD to tell me where he was, as his brother was in the car with him. He did not want to be teased I guess..hahahah..!

Nway, I was surprised as this is something new coming from him and I love the fact that he is making the effort in doing it. I appreciated it so much. He stopped over at UNITEN and we had breakfast. Then, he hanged around in my office until it was time for lunch. He surfed the net, he chatted with his friends through YM..and yeah, I really missed my PC that time..hehehe..He left after lunch and we met up again in the evening with his bunch of friends before we finally bid our goodbyes for the day.

It’s good that he knows about my working environment..how most of the time, I would only be in the office and just do my work..if there is any work to do that is. I will only interact with people when there are classes, meetings, some courses to attend or from my daily routines. Then, I go home and just be with my family. That’s my life. And now he understands why I always think too much and assume too many things. Hmm..I too need to start making myself occupied.

Being static may not be a good thing, you need to move around, and I guess, that is the purpose of blog hopping..heheh..

PERFECTION

On Friday, due to boredom, I have decided to give my aunt a call and we had a chat for quite a while. It seemed that she is really pissed off with her 16-year-old daughter who I shall referred to as D.

D in my opinion is a very witty and intelligent young lady. I enjoyed being with her as she is so funny and she has the tendency of blurting out something out of the blue that is just hilarious. But lately, according to my aunt, she has mixed around with the wrong bunch of friends. She has started to come home late even though she had been told to be home before 7pm. She starts to question why her friends get the privilege of getting home at 9 or 10pm, why is it so hard for her mom to let her going out and so forth…which never happened before. Don’t get me wrong, she is a good daughter, it’s just my aunt miss the good old D that is always doing well in her class, never question her methods of upbringing and so forth.

Hmm, it’s true that friends influence our lives in many ways. I am fortunate to be surrounded with good, kind friends when I was growing up till now. However, I have to say that my sister influences me a lot. When she was a teenager, she was a tomboy. I looked at her as some sort of a role model and so, I followed her ways. I too become a tomboy and I think now, I still walk like a gangster looking for a fight. ( that’s what my sister told me..heheh ).

But nevertheless, inside, I am not as strong as I appeared to be. I am very sensitive, very emotional, that I sometimes can’t understand why. Sometimes I do wish that I could brush off all the little things or not to think about anything too much. I used to be able to block my thinking by means of just saying to myself, don’t think about it, Adah. Lately, I can still do it, but I need to work harder.

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I want people to accept me for who I am, as I always do that to the people around me, I accept them for who they are. But I am having problem of accepting him for who he is. I have this model of my perfect guy inside my head, and I want him to follow that..and it’s not fair, I know. He has the fundamental parts of course as he is kind, responsible, honest, loyal and he cares about me…that is what matters to me actually.

I know that the same thing applies to me. I know that I am not what he thought I was back then. I always drive him crazy...

The last few days had been an emotional roller coaster for me as I have my doubts and fear about the unknowing..which I think is normal. All I can do is pray and keep on praying that everything will be ok.

I am not perfect, and so is he. But what is important is that I believe that we are perfect for each other.