Everybody must have this experience. How a major event in your life had changed you sometimes positively and negatively.
As for me, honestly, I never had that sort of experience but I nearly had it early this year when what I believe was ( and still ) my first love had broken my heart and at that moment, I just felt so lost and I did not think that I will ever be myself again.
Sometimes, when you are heart broken, you feel like your life has gone haywire and nothing matters anymore. Your career, your life..you just simply don’t care and you just want to disappear.
I am honestly jealous of someone who could give that impact to somebody. Crazy jealous..it shows how important he or she was in his or her life that can caused that sort of heartache.
I watched Wicker Park last night and towards the end of that movie, at the airport when Matthew said to his fiancé, Rebecca that he made a mistake of wanting to marry her..how all this while, he is still in love with this girl, Lisa and how Lisa had broke his heart…there was this dialogue from Rebecca,
“That what Matthew??...that I am not the girl that can break you heart??” then she left and Matthew went to look for Lisa.
In real life la kan..I’m sure Rebecca was so so hoping that Matthew would run after her..*sigh*
Nway…..looking at the bright side la kan..I wouldn’t know whether I will ever make that sort of impact to anybody..and I hope I will never caused that much pain to someone la kan, Insya-Allah.
I hope that I can be the girl that can be supportive, help him pick up the pieces and get him back on track..even though it may take longer for him to do so..but I know eventually he will and I do hope that part of the reason is because of my presence in his life…
